August reflection

I started writing this post after another successful pool party and another crazy day of waking up coated in sunscreen and sticky beer.
Sleep seems to miss me most nights and I toss and turn. My brain doesn't seem to shut off.
I don't mind, knowing I have these views and the warmth of summer to look forward to.


August is the "official" last month of summer, although I am secretly pining for September to be just as warm. Maybe we will luck out and delay fall temps and clothing and colors for a just a bit more.

A lot of times I look forward to the changing seasons.  Not this time. I want the smell of chlorine to waft in my nostrils every day all day.  Hot apple cider, jackets, scarves, shades of orange, brown, and red can wait. I want neon and green and growth and tan for life.

In the beginning of 2014, Mark and I talked about kids and timing and when we "should" have them. I wanted to go on a 6 month hiatus because honestly, the last year and a half had worn me down. The constant surveillance and monitoring, worrying about timing and all that. I just wanted a break.
And Mark had mentioned that we should just enjoy our summer and figure it out after.
I wanted to get a jump start knowing it would be an uphill battle.

Turns out, we are both realizing we are "getting what we want."  Mark got me the whole summer without having to forgo libations and dealing with a bloated possibly nauseous wife.
I got to start during the summer, only to come up empty handed.
So we move forward. Onto the next cycle with only shedding a few tears. Staying hopeful.

The upside of another busted cycle is I get another month to save money. Another month to plan.
We spent a lot of time in our upstairs bathroom talking about options. Then I spent a lot of time in Menard's staring at things and leaving empty handed. We have a plan and know it'll take some money, but it'll be worth it.
Also, my company doesn't pay for maternity leave so I will need to save for the few months I would be out. It's all possible, and another month just makes it easier to breathe, a tad.

On a different note, stay tuned for a Blog Auction I am participating in with Helene in Between.
I am auctioning off a "Fat Bottom Girl" blogger design package at 50% off. You can't beat that!!
The auction starts on my birthday, August 21....more details to follow!

How was your weekend? Are you looking forward to fall or thinking about packing up and moving for warmer weather?!